Sunday, March 29, 2009

Coming to My Senses

You will all be happy to hear that after a week of not thinking about weight, diet, and exercise, I have finally come to my senses. After doing all the "right things" since January, I forgot how gross you feel after not thinking what's going in your mouth. I have felt sluggish, tired, and bloated. So back to the drawing board for a plan of action.
Thanks, for the encouragement this week everyone who left comments, they help me out so much, and give me great suggestions! It makes me excited to get back on track this week, and I am surprisingly excited to go back to the gym tomorrow!
Not to much to write about this week, you all already got the downer post last week so I will just say onward and upward and their will be good things to report next week!

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Sarcasm Much?

First I just want to start out with the fact that I have had a positive attitude so far this whole year, so please forgive the negativity you are going to hear from here out.
I love to gain weight. I tell myself this because I have to, if I didn't like gaining weight then it wouldn't happen so frequently. This is the sarcasm I speak of. This week was horrible!!! It;s when you think you've got something nailed and then a giant hand smacks you to the ground and says "not so fast silly girl, its not that easy!" Your good for the majority of the time you say no to the plate of cookies a client brings into you, you go to the healthy side of the mountain chick ladies candy van and get pistachio's instead of the chocolate caramel clusters that you are dying for. This is just one day of my week. So when I think back on the sacrifices that I am making in my daily life, like losing sleep to go to the gym at 4:30 am every morning even though when your alarm goes off your so tired you could cry, it is easy to shed a tear when you step on that scale and it reads 2 lbs. heavier than the week before! And the worst part about it, is that you want to binge on something fatty and sugary and horrible for you, but when I look in my fridge all I have is healthy crap like light yogurt and fruits and vegetables.....ahrrrrrrrrrrg, I can't win!
I don't have a plan of attack for the coming week like any other week that I've had a gain. Somedays you just want to throw yourself a pity party and not get out of bed. How do you get out of a rut like this?
Forgive my moment of weakness, I'll be a new person next wee, I promise!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Thank you Oprah!

So I was watching my DVR'd daily Oprah show on Thursday and it gave me a great tip on how to gag down your daily oatmeal in the morning.........APPLE JUICE! Wow, what an eye opener! I bought the Simply Apple juice that is 100% apples and added a cup of juice instead of water to my oatmeal and vwalaw, delicious non cardboard tasting oatmeal! Add a little cinnamon and man it makes for a good breakfast.
So as if there aren't enough reasons already to lose weight Dustin added one more this week. He decided that for our "corporate vacation" we are going on a carnival cruise to the Bahama's next February. I am really excited and I want to be able to experience my vacation to the fullest, so just one more thing to put in the back of my mind while on the treadmill.
I lost 1 lb this week, and I feel awesome! I can't explain the feeling I get when I know that I am trying to better my life and seeing results. This has been such hard work so far and I am so excited about the changes I'm already seeing! I now weigh 254 lbs.! I will post another pic next week.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Sweet Success!

This was a great week! I think that the recommitment really paid off. I had some tough obstacles to hurdle.
I had another fun insurance meeting that I had to sit through with doughnuts for breakfast, twix's for snacks and Johnny Carino's cheese stuffed pasta for lunch. This time I planned ahead and brought my own lunch of chicken breast, carrots and an orange. I didn't eat one of the candies on the table and it was easy to say no to the lunch because I had brought my own.
I don't know about anyone else, but when I read about diet and health it seems to keep me on track. I started to read the book "Eat Clean Diet" (I got the idea from my friend Shalee on facebook, thanks Sha!) The first 3 days were the worst! Getting use to eating fruits, veggies, whole grains and lean meats were rough. The foods you eat are all non-processed whole foods. Its nothing that I didn't already know but a good refresher. By day four I was feeling good and felling the effects on the body with a healthy diet. I lost 4 lbs this week! I feel awesome which is great incentive to keep it up! I now weigh 255!

Monday, March 2, 2009

I Have an Awesome Family!!!!!!

In case I don't say it enough.......I love my family! You guys are inspirational to me and I am truely blessed to have all of you in my life!!! Thanks for the comments!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

"I Call Do Over"

I think there is always a time where you need to recommit to the goals that you have set for yourself. Today I have tried to get myself in the mind set of a re-commitment to my goals. Not that I did horrible this past week, but I was losing sight of the task at hand.
So as much as I try to prepare myself for the weeks Dustin is off, I am never fully prepared. I start out the week having a heart to heart with Dustin saying "I don't want you to treat this week like a vacation", and " We are not going out to dinner, I mean it!", but best of all is the line I hear from Dustin, "sure I'll go to the gym at 4:30 in the morning on my day off". What happens? 4:30 rolls around and I want to stay in my warm bed with my snoring husband. Now, I didn't do bad, I went 4 times, but the hard part is that Dustin actually takes me seriously when I say that we're not going out to eat. Then when I suggest it he gives me the look like, hey, you told me we're not going out this week, but ok whatever you like. This is not great for my moments of weakness. Then I think, I can have salmon, or a salad, or a more healthy choice, but then I look at the menu and anything fried and smothered in cheese seems way more pleasing. Then I go home and feel bloated and overstuffed, you know, the regret sets in.
Needless to say that my weight did not move this week. 259 lbs. Frustration sets in and I think back over the week and analyze where I went wrong? I could blame Dustin for not kicking me out of bed some of those mornings, or even get upset with him that he said ok to going out to dinner when I told him very adamantly that it was not on the agenda. It just felt like one of those weeks that you feel like you didn't do anything right, you throw yourself a pity party and blame other people for your failings.
Oh wait......I am responsible for me?..........and my actions?..........and only I can choose my attitude?........huh. Well then, I choose to recommit myself and not lose sight of my goals. I'm making this journey for myself and for my future.
This week I am recommitting myself and to top it off, I agreed to do a 5K with a friend this summer. I am excited about this new venture, and I can't wait to start working my way towards this exciting step in my life!
One thing I do need this week for a boost is a comment! It does not need to be grandiose or anything big just a "hey I read your blog this week" . It helps to see how many people read this. It is very motivating to see that people are interested in what you are doing in your lives! I love to read the support of the awesome people in my life!