Drastic Changes

So I'm doing a little different of an update today because there are some changes that will be coming up this week, and I thought I would inform you all on what changes are going to occur. I didn't do a weigh in this week, but I have some exciting (I don't know if that's the word I'm looking for?...) things that are going to make some drastic differences, but first I probably need to make an explanation. This is some personal information, but then again I have already told you how much I weigh, so I guess it can't get any worse!
I know some of you know this already but, for those who don't, the decision to lose weight came because me and Dustin have been trying to have a baby for the last 3 years. Before we moved to Grand Junction I saw an Endocrinologist and she told me she wouldn't touch my situation until I lost some weight. She didn't want to put me on fertility pills and she assured me that I will get gestational diabetes if I got pregnant at the weight I am now. I wanted to get pregnant naturally and healthily (is that a word?) so I tried many things to help out my situation, exercise, South Beach Diet, Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig........you name it I tried it. Every time I lost about 16 lbs. and then I couldn't get past that. I started feeling uncomfortable with the changes I was making, and scared to death that I might actually succeed. Why would I feel like that? What is so scary and uncomfortable about trying to be your best self? The icing on the cake was when I started getting outrageous headaches and my Doctor told me they were due to the fact that I was borderline Type 2 Diabetic. How could I have let myself get this way? I'm not sure but, in the last week I had an awakening. I truly believe that anyone who is over 100 lbs. overweight, isn't just overweight because they like to eat, I think that they eat because of something else. Obviously, I am not sure why I eat. I don't know what void I'm trying to fill in my head.
Recently, I spoke to someone who has lost a great deal of weight (they wish to remain nameless). I finally cornered the person and asked point blank what are you doing!? I didn't notice just the weight loss, but also their attitude had completely changed. I could tell it was more than diet and exercise. They told me about a special program that was put on by a Doctor in my area that helps to lose weight, but the reason that so many people were having success is that in order to stay on the program you have to attend a group therapy session once a week kind of like over eaters anonymous. I guess I would consider food an addiction that needs to be treated. My friend who was on the program said that was why it was working because they were treating more than just the basic diet and exercise.
My point is I am going to see the Doctor on Tuesday to have an orientation and then I join the group on Thursday. Thursday will be my new weigh in day, and I will post updates every Thursday from here on out. The Program is 19 weeks long, and I will give more details as they come.
Thanks for reading me rant, but I am not giving up on my goal no matter what I have to do to get there. I know there are precious souls waiting for me to succeed!